I know, I know – I’m not supposed to worry. I can’t help myself. :-/ Here are some of the thoughts on my mind about the future day when we have kids:

I’m scared about having really difficult pregnancies – in bed, sick the entire time.

I worry about morning sickness in general.

I’m scared of having a miscarriage.

I’m absolutely terrified of labor and giving birth. I have too many au natural friends.

I’m scared that I’m not going to know what to do with a baby.

I’m scared that he or she is going to scream all day and I’m not going to know what to do.

I’m scared that having kids is going to drive apart me and my husband.

I worry about where the money will come from when our expenses increase.

I worry I will have to go back to work.

I worry about what happens when I get sick or get a migraine once I have a baby and/or a toddler.

I’m scared I am going to be lonely.

I worry about making the wrong decisions for my children.

I worry that I’m going to bring them up wrong.

I’m scared that I won’t like my own kids – that they will scream and cry and I won’t know what to do.

I’m afraid I will yell at my kids too much, and lose patience with them.

I’m scared that somehow they will not learn about Christ from me; that my attempts to plant seeds in their hearts will utterly fail.

I’m scared of being a mom, and at the same time I’m scared that I WON’T get to be a mom.

“So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” – Matthew 6:31-34

“You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.” – 2 Chronicles 20:17

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty…
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day…
“Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.”
– Psalm 91:1, 4-5, 14-15