(Originally published at Onward Christian Soldier) Sometimes I feel like I can’t do it, I can’t be the perfect Christian so why even try? I am so overwhelmed with all the sins in my life and all the characteristics about myself that You hate… and I want to just crawl into a hole and die. The road is unending and weary; there are no smooth spots… People say, “have hope” but for what? Hope that everything gets better? Is there…
God, thanks for people like Bethany. She reminds me that I do want to continue to seek You. Please continue to bring those types of relationships in my life. I think I’m understanding the idea of the depravity of man, and the Calvinistic view that we can’t reach out to You in our own sin. I like the image of a lamb, trying to jump into his master’s arms. He can’t do it; it’s too high. He has to wait…
As with anything, there is an end. I like knowing where the end is. It helps me persevere, not giving up because I know it’s only a little bit longer. Today I sat down and made a list of all the things I have yet to do for my show. The list: * address and mail invitations * print out the last 5 pieces * crop all the pieces (figure out the best way to do that!) * attach to…
A week from today, I need to hang my show. Yikes! Am I ready? This weekend is going to be busy… The past two weeks in senate we have been listening to different clubs on campus petition for funding, and we have been voting on how much to give them. It’s quite fun, but this morning when my alarm went off I took a vote inside my head as to whether the motion to get up had passed or not,…
I left the art building shortly before 1 last night. I was so exhausted; after attempting some of the homework I had due today, I gave up and sank into bed. Unfortunately, I could not sleep. I kept unintentionally jolting myself awake, sure that I was about to roll off the edge of my bed. I closed my eyes and tried to tell myself a nice story, but my thoughts kept going back to my show… I need to get…