When I decided I would give up Facebook for Lent, I was getting frustrated with that site and I thought a break would do me well. I also have never participated in the fasting from something aspect of Lent, and I was eager to try it once. Whoa, it has been harder than I expected!
Side note: I read a good article here about why Protestants give up things for Lent.
I need to remember that me fasting from something, withholding myself from something, is a reminder of what Jesus did for me on the cross. Of course His sacrifice was so much greater than my piddly giving-up-Facebook. I have tried to fill my time with some Scripture reading – I have been reading the Easter story (and all the surrounding events). Last night I read about the Last Supper and pondered a bit on communion and the seriousness of it.
I really do miss Facebook, though. I didn’t anticipate how cut off from friends I would be. I have compensated by becoming active in not one, but three different online forums. :-p I didn’t even realize I was doing it at the time. I also miss my friends knowing things about me. Let’s face it, no one comes to my blog anymore.
It’s also been interesting that forcing myself to stay off Facebook has another unintended consequence… It seriously is something I struggle with every day. Sometimes I am so tired and down I just want to give in. I know that sounds silly! But I am also struggling a LOT with my weight. I know what I need to be doing, it’s just a constant denying your body what you crave and forcing yourself to eat things you don’t want to eat. And it’s hard. And to be honest, after spending all day forcing myself to not be around my friends, I don’t have much energy to not give into my cravings. I have been doing terribly on my diet, and to be honest I just feel so discouraged.
Anyways, I am counting the days until Easter – 19 more days!! We’re less than 3 weeks now. I can do it, I can do it! I need to keep turning my thoughts back to Jesus and reminding myself why I’m doing this.