true confessions

true confessions

Today marks 144 days until my wedding. To understand the significance of this, I refer you to Susan’s soapbox. :-)

So I have a confession to make. I am having a really hard time concentrating, at work and at home. I’ve been having trouble the past month or two. My mind is just elsewhere.

I think my supervisor has noticed. I am not nearly as productive as I used to be. Every day I go to work and tell myself that today I’m going to WORK and get things done and  be productive with my time, and every day I find myself struggling to focus on the tasks at hand. I will end up chatting with one of my coworkers, or write an email, or (recently) get an idea for my wedding and get all excited. *sigh*

I’m distracted at home, too. I used to be very responsible, paying my bills, keeping my apartment clean. I’m not talking about tidy as much as I’m talking about taking out the trash, cleaning the cat box, doing dishes. My desk is piled high will letters I need to respond to and bills I need to take care of. My clean clothes are still in the laundry basket where I put them after I did laundry a week and a half ago. My work shirts are hanging up ready to be ironed. I keep saying I need a holiday, a weekend, something. But the weekend comes and I do none of it.

The sad part is I can’t even tell you what I *AM* doing with my time. I really don’t know. I must spend time on the phone, or tinkering with my website/blog, or watching TV. TV I’m sure is a big part of it. I keep saying I’ll watch less TV when Paul gets here… that’s probably true, because I do watch it for companionship. I miss having a roommate. :-/

So here I am. I feel like I’m failing in work. I need to work harder, focus more. I guess it’s just a daily struggle to keep my mind focused on what I need to do. Could this be perhaps what kids with ADD feel?

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