Monthly Archives: October 2004

Oct 26 2004

fall break

It’s been a while! Well I’m sure no one expected me to be blogging while Paul was here. I must admit I didn’t even think about it. Paul left this morning, and I’m still kind of down… I always get like this right after he leaves. I’ll be okay in a few days… It’s always hardest in the beginning, though.

The weekend I spent with him was incredible. I enjoyed so much having him here again, and it just made me all the more sure that I want to stick by him. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, but I think seeing each other during absence is what really makes those feelings grow.

We spent a lot of time just hanging out and talking this weekend, but it was good. The big thing we did was on Saturday we drove to Mammoth Caves National Park in Kentucky and took a tour. It was definitely worth the drive! Paul loved it, as I knew he would. We did the lantern tour, which is going through about 3 miles of the cave by lantern-light. It was a little spooky but definitely fun. We want to go back and take a lit tour (like the one I went on with Joanna last year for her birthday) so Paul can see all the geological formations of the cave.

We didn’t really “do” anything else big, but we definitely enjoyed ourselves and I think we got a lot of the bumpy things smoothed over.

Now fall break is over (*tears*) and I am back here alone again trying to get into the swing of things. I have lots of homework to catch up on, as well as other little things like getting my resume and portfolio ready so I can apply to jobs. (the real world hits!)

My birthday is exactly two months from today.

Oct 20 2004

tomorrow!

It’s December 5th all over again. It’s been 11 weeks since I last saw Paul, which is only 5 weeks shorter than last fall semester when he was in Ireland. Now it’s the day before I get to see him again. I’m excited and nervous. A lot has happened – how will it be to be together again? We’ve been able to move on in our AIM conversations, but seeing each other is a big step from chatting on instant messenger. Will we get a chance to work through everything we need to this weekend? Will we find peace about where we are in our relationship?

I’m so excited. It’s been a long and awful 11 weeks, but when I look back it’s hard to believe that we were engaged only 11 weeks ago – it seems so much longer. When I relfect on who we were then and who we are now, there is such a big change. A good change; we’re headed in the right direction now.

A lot of people are confused about where Paul and I stand in our relationship, and the most I can say is that we are still together, we’re not engaged, but we’re definitely committed to each other for the long haul. We’re probably a lot deeper than a lot of dating couples, but marriage in the near future is not a possibility right now. We have a lot to work through, but we’re determined to work through it and not give up on a relationship. I call him my boyfriend, but I love him more deeply now than I ever have – even when we were engaged.

It’s all confusing but I hope that as time passes things will straighten out. :-)

Oct 19 2004

Vis Gis

I thought I’d share with ya’ll about the grade I received for my Vis Gis assignment.

My assignment was due the same week as my show, and so I didn’t have time to do it really. Finally, since it was already like 3 days overdue, I just whipped something together and turned it in not quite complete.

I got my grade today. Here is what he said:

Layouts (30): 20
only one of three required layouts seen

Yes, I actually only DID one of the three required layouts… But obviously I got credit for doing two of them, I can’t complain. :-)

Ah. Now I need to do the next assignment. Which was due on Monday. (Yes, that would be yesterday.)

the countdown: 3 days till Paul comes :-D

Oct 17 2004

relationships

So I’m back from Wheaton. It was a nice weekend, although I’ve been plagued with something that has caused me to not be able to sleep at night. I have had trouble with this before, and I don’t know why. Am I worried? stressed? anxious? I don’t know.

So there’s a thought that’s been on my mind recently. What exactly does a Christ-centered relationship look like? If you were counseling a young couple, what would you suggest for them to do? How can you delight in the other person in a healthy, godly way?

My heart is yearning to know the answers.

Oct 15 2004

yay for fridays!

I am moments away from leaving to go to Tree’s house this weekend. Yay! I am exhausted. I am glad to be done with that awful Vis GIS test I had that I bombed (I’ve never felt more unprepared for a test and so at a loss of how and what to study). I am glad to put projects aside for the meantime, and focus only on spending time with Tree and relaxing.

I thought I’d pass along a funny article I read today:

Dutch princess seeks divorce through newspaper ad
THE HAGUE (AFP) – Dutch princess Margarita de Bourbon, the 32-year old niece of Queen Beatrix, placed an advertisement in a Dutch newspaper informing her husband that she is filing for divorce.

Oh and I found out that the flying squirrel is actually a different part of the high ropes course. I actually went on the zip line. I thought it had two names, but apparently the flying squirrel is something else that we haven’t done yet. Oh well!

Have a good weekend, ya’ll!