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Month: September 2004

i am so stupid

i am so stupid

For some reason, I ordered half the amount of plexiglass I needed. Why did I do this? Argh. :-( So now first thing on Monday I have to order more plexi… And pray that it will get done on time. *sigh* Now I know why it was cheaper than I thought… I’m tired of life. Someone shoot me and put me out of my misery.

frustrations

frustrations

(Originally published at Onward Christian Soldier) Sometimes I feel like I can’t do it, I can’t be the perfect Christian so why even try? I am so overwhelmed with all the sins in my life and all the characteristics about myself that You hate… and I want to just crawl into a hole and die. The road is unending and weary; there are no smooth spots… People say, “have hope” but for what? Hope that everything gets better? Is there…

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the lamb

the lamb

God, thanks for people like Bethany. She reminds me that I do want to continue to seek You. Please continue to bring those types of relationships in my life. I think I’m understanding the idea of the depravity of man, and the Calvinistic view that we can’t reach out to You in our own sin. I like the image of a lamb, trying to jump into his master’s arms. He can’t do it; it’s too high. He has to wait…

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light at the end of the tunnel

light at the end of the tunnel

As with anything, there is an end. I like knowing where the end is. It helps me persevere, not giving up because I know it’s only a little bit longer. Today I sat down and made a list of all the things I have yet to do for my show. The list: * address and mail invitations * print out the last 5 pieces * crop all the pieces (figure out the best way to do that!) * attach to…

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one week

one week

A week from today, I need to hang my show. Yikes! Am I ready? This weekend is going to be busy… The past two weeks in senate we have been listening to different clubs on campus petition for funding, and we have been voting on how much to give them. It’s quite fun, but this morning when my alarm went off I took a vote inside my head as to whether the motion to get up had passed or not,…

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