My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught at the voice of the enemy, at the stares of the wicked;for they bring down suffering upon me and revile me in their anger. My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of death assail me.Fear and trembling have beset me; horror has overwhelmed me.I said, “Oh, that I had the wings of a dove! I would fly away and be at rest-I would flee far away and stay in the…
For some reason, I ordered half the amount of plexiglass I needed. Why did I do this? Argh. :-( So now first thing on Monday I have to order more plexi… And pray that it will get done on time. *sigh* Now I know why it was cheaper than I thought… I’m tired of life. Someone shoot me and put me out of my misery.
(Originally published at Onward Christian Soldier) Sometimes I feel like I can’t do it, I can’t be the perfect Christian so why even try? I am so overwhelmed with all the sins in my life and all the characteristics about myself that You hate… and I want to just crawl into a hole and die. The road is unending and weary; there are no smooth spots… People say, “have hope” but for what? Hope that everything gets better? Is there…
God, thanks for people like Bethany. She reminds me that I do want to continue to seek You. Please continue to bring those types of relationships in my life. I think I’m understanding the idea of the depravity of man, and the Calvinistic view that we can’t reach out to You in our own sin. I like the image of a lamb, trying to jump into his master’s arms. He can’t do it; it’s too high. He has to wait…
As with anything, there is an end. I like knowing where the end is. It helps me persevere, not giving up because I know it’s only a little bit longer. Today I sat down and made a list of all the things I have yet to do for my show. The list: * address and mail invitations * print out the last 5 pieces * crop all the pieces (figure out the best way to do that!) * attach to…