It’s after 2 am. I have a huge test tomorrow, and a project due. But I have spent more time looking off into space than I have in studying. My heart hurts. My whole body is filled with sadness. I keep crying for no apparent reason. I can’t concentrate on homework.
I hate my life how it is right now. I am so confused, and I don’t know what to do. I hate being super honest like this in my blog, but I feel like I have to get it out. I’m tired of this life; I’m ready for something else. I’m tired of the pressures of getting a job. Why did I come to a fancy expensive college if I’m going to be doing something I hate just to pay it off? I am tired of traveling. I want to stop. I want my friends to be here, so I don’t have to go hours to see them.
I have so much to do, but it’s 2 am and I haven’t done hardly anything. I don’t want to bomb this test tomorrow. I mostly just want to curl into a little ball and cry until there is no more left in me.
Can I justify going straight to bed without studying? I need a break. A five year coma. I just want to stop this.